The healthy and strong individual is the one who asks for help when he needs it.  Whether he’s got an abscess on his knee or in his soul.  ~Rona Barrett

My diagnosis…A body, and mind that swim in opposite directions.  This is what I truly believe.

I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy in September of 2000, he was worth every pain, and change to my physical, and mental health.  My body had swum upstream, and I was not ready to embrace the pains of chronic illness.  Hell….I had plans.  We all have them.  Why did I have to sit on the sidelines, watching friends bound towards their dreams, while I struggled to get out of bed, and raise my son?

LIFE ISN’T FAIR…

We hear this from everyone, we nod, and smile.  We think, ” It Can’t Happen To Me.”

I am here to tell you that it WILL happen.  When it does, unless you embrace changes, and work with them, it could destroy you.    I forced myself to find positive things to focus on.  I had time to write.  I still had a voice, that has no intention of quieting down anytime soon….(  Much to the dismay of loved ones! :))

Mixed Connective Tissue Disorder will not destroy me.  If one road is unreachable, I will search for the detour.  There is strength in endurance, that I will hopefully find along the journey.

Excuse the Pollyanna attitude, but positivity helps get me through the dark times, along with some silliness, and good pizza…

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